Day 4: Panic

Day 4 (!!) went right to hell.. I went out for my 5k run, and I was exited! "YES!! I can do this!!" I thought. And I did it. For 2,5km. I started to feel some back and neck pain, the wind was almost blowing me over and my stomache was rumbeling. Then I stopped. And I could not for the life of me start to run again.

Often when I stop doing something, I feel so let down because I didn't reach my goal and took the easy way out instead. In this case the easy way out was walking instead of running. And that does sometimes lead to..panic attacks. I start to hyperventilate, cry, and I can't think straight. And its just crazy idiotic.

But, that's how I'm built. I'm gonna try again later today, maybe not run the 5k, but if I'm gonna reach my goal, I have to do something.

Xx, Sophie.

Ps: I'll have my first "weigh in" on sunday... Scared to death.